a thought. —another sitting in a subway car story
Sitting alone in a subway car on my daily commute home…something struck me as I had a highly thought provoking moment. I began thinking about my relationships with people, and how I really have no genuine relationships at all…which then prompted me to wonder what people would say about me if say, I were to die tomorrow?
If I were to die tomorrow, and I was able to put myself in people’s minds and ask, what was your last memory of Martha? I wondered…now what would they say? The sad thing is, I know the answer to that question, and I know for most what that answer would be. Thinking about that answer, and then reflecting back on how I’ve handled all of my relationships in the past, I see how many great people in my life I have let go and how many have just written me off…and it’s strange because I know myself, and nothing is more fulfilling than having intimate connections with people. I practically crave it, yet am so terrible at it. But that’s a story for another time.
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So, what would everyone’s last memory or thought of me be if I were to die tomorrow? …
i asked myself this and it made me want to be a better person.
